I have always loved dance and find it to be one of the only things that frees my anxiety of the future. Although I typically dance alone or with my loved ones working with professional dancers who access their flow state so quickly is truly incredible. There are moments in here that reflect my emotions over the years and during COVID. Sometimes I dwell too much on the future and think about what I could be doing better in the present or what I did wrong in the past and why is the future (or now) different than I expected? Having ADHD my brain is constantly traveling and exploring new terrains. Much like dance and the beautiful chaos that somehow makes us calm. This piece is the story of my past and present colliding together to create our future.
Giving direction to the dancers was a very refreshing experience. There wasn’t a lot of choreography that was involved, instead they were given an emotion or a tone and feel for that moment. So fluidly they can transition to a different ton, it felt like I was watching Jazz.
This is my first dance film and has been one of the most exciting things I’ve done. For me, sometimes it’s difficult to relate on such a literal narrative but making something more abstract leaves room for interpretation.